3/17/11

"Am I more than you bargained for, yet?

I've been dying to tell you anything you wanna hear

because that's just who I am this week."

-Fall Out Boy

HAPPY ST.PATRICK'S DAY!

Even though I completely and utterly forgot about it until today at school. Oh well, it's not that big of a deal. I work tonight though and they're having green beer at the bar & all the irish horse jockeys will be coming in for that, I'm sure. Lovely. Drunk, short guys who can hardly speak English walking around with green beers in their hands flirting with every girl that walks by. Fun stuff.

Well there's nothing really specific on my mind today, other than my severe case of senioritis. I don't think there's a cure for that though. And I'm just going to have to keep suffering in silence. At least I'm not the only one. It's so weird to think I've been going to this school since second semester of my sophomore year and now I'm about to graduate from this school. This is just about the longest I've stayed somewhere. Thank God. I can't imagine starting over at a new school this year.

Oh, I just remembered. There is something on my mind. This morning my Dad's mother, my grandma, well her husband passed away. He was not biologically my grandpa, but he sure was  a sweet man. I remember going to Wal*Mart with him and he kept running into people he knew and would introduce me as his beautiful grandaughter. I didn't mind. He didn't have any biological grandkids and I was happy to sort of fill that void for him. I really hate that he passed away so quickly, but I'm glad he's no longer in pain. We were planning a trip to visit him not this weekend but the next. He's been in the hospital with double pnemonia (i didn't know you could have pnemonia twice at the same time) and he had all kinds of other things wrong with him, too. As soon as school gets out I need to call my grandma. She's a very strong woman and I wish I could be with her right now. This is the second time she's had a husband pass away. She needs me. Oh, I'm starting to tear up again. Not again. I look stupid. Well to sum it up, Enjoy the time you have with people now because they can leave before you know it. 

Rest In Peace J.T. Russell <3 I enjoyed the time I had getting to know you and I'm happy to call you part of my family. You brought joy to my grandma I had not seen in years. You were her angel and it was your time to leave and go back home. While you're up there keep an eye out for her & put in a good word for me. I don't think I ever told you, but I love you.

Now you can ride your horse with wings through the pearly gates into Heaven.